Assalamualaikum.

tonight is so calm. i thought. but no, i just feel like, makin besar makin banyak yang kita kene cuba, sedar, faham. i dont have problems with anyone, maybe some got problems with me. i just live the way i wanted. aku memang tak cukup besar lagi nak buat decision, tapi aku ada hak nak buat keputusan untuk hidup aku. i know everybody has different ways of thinking. same goes to me. maybe you see me have done something that really worst, cant be accepted. everyone grows, including my thoughts and each of my decisions. makin lama aku makin matang. even kalau salah pun decision yang kita buat, semua tu bagi pengajaran dekat kita. and i take it as experience, so i can go through this life easier in future.

not much to say, but for now, i only have friends. nothing more, nothing less. like i say, apa yang lepas tu buat aku tahu serba sedikit nak go through this life. yes, i need my friend's supports and advices. just to make me stay stronger everyday. tapi aku bukan jenis yang senang nak bagi tau my problems. some of them, not really, maybe just one of them, really knows what im facing right now. and thank you for your advices. dia ingatkan balik semua yang dah jadi, ye, sangat berguna. mungkin aku dah lupa semua tu, tapi bila perkara lepas datang balik dekat kita, we got only a way to solve it, kita ingat balik benda lepas. maybe itu boleh buat kita fikir lebih jauh. maybe itu boleh mudahkan hidup kita.

mungkin ada yang rasa aku ni tak patut buat itu, ini. and for your information, aku dah cukup fikir pasal benda tu semua. i know what i should or should not do. ada juga rasa dah malas dengan semua ni, but i have to face it. i can handle this, insya Allah. right now, im not really focusing on my study, tak buka buku pun, tapi ill never give a damn to my problems. actually its not really a problem, maybe its just messing around my mind. take it off. so, what ill find is serene. switching off my phone really helps me. no one may interrupt my life, tapi nanti aku buka lah balik. hidup tanpa phone pun boleh buat aku gila. haha.

i know how to handle all these.  maybe i may break again twice, but ill try my best not to make it happens in reality. handle things maturely, youre better off without the drama.

im not the one who really tell the true story of mine, im just telling you in general.

im on a vacation in my own world.